I’m sorry
Dear Anak,
I’m sorry for not sticking on our schedule recently. I have been pre occupied with so many things. I’m sorry too for sometimes I can’t help but get easily irritated when you interrupt me every time I am in the middle of my busy-ness. It dawned on me that everytime you act like that, it means you need attention– my full attention– and that I must be aware and enjoy your childhood for it only comes once.
Everytime you noticed my anger, you would easily say “I’m Sorry Mommy. Di ko na po yun ulitin”. And that makes me like a melted candle and hugged you and say “it’s okay son. I’m teaching you now while you are young so when you grow up, you will be a responsible citizen”. And you would reply “Opo Mommy”.
You know what made me write this ? Because I just watched a very beautiful video about a father and a son. The father is already gray haired and the son is around 40’s. They were both seated on the bench outside their house and the father asked the son “what was that?” after he heard the sound of the sparrow. The son answered “it’s a sparrow”, but when the father asked again for the 3rd time, the son lost his temper and shouted back at his father “I already said its a sparrow!!”. Then the father stood up, went inside the house and when he came back, he brought with him a small notebook. He handed it to his son and told his son to read it aloud. It says something like ” today, my son turned 3. We were at the park when he asked me “what is that? and i said “a sparrow”. He asked me that same question for 21 times and I never got tired of answering him 21 times. I even hugged him every time I answered.”
I almost cried after viewing it. I felt guilty for being hot tempered sometimes. From now on, I will only ENJOY and MAXIMIZE my time with you. Your questions I will now listen with full attention and treat each moment with you a blessing that not all mothers could have. I am so proud having a son like you. And thank you for learning first time obedience, even if it’s a bit difficult to really instill it in you, but I will never get tired of teaching you until you will fully learn.
We went to the BIR office the other day and today and you surprised me again when as soon as we got inside the building, you headed to the lounge and looked for a vacant seat. You were able to find one and joined the rest of the people in watching TV. When you came to me, I asked what was the show all about and why the people were laughing. You said ” Mr. Bean po mommy”. I’m shocked that even you know Mr Bean! How come? hahaha… And a lady in front of me said ” Anak mo yan? Ilang taon? Behave sya masyado no?”. She made that comment after she saw you just sitting there and waiting for me.
It’s a joy to hear compliments like that. Keep up the good work my dear.
I love you so much!
mommy











